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It's been some time since I last blogged; a week it seems, as stated on lj.
You know, during my internship I felt as though I didn't have a life; all I do is work, and work and work. And since it's by shift, I don't necessarily have weekends off. And off on weekdays are usually to catch up on some sleep.
But now that I'm back in school, I feel so much worse! And I'm not supposed to feel that way. Maybe it's because I'm not in the popular clique in the course, or maybe because my groupies and I have split up due to different majors or classes. I don't know. I just doesn't feel right being in school anymore.
There's totally no sense of motivation at all!
I need something to inspire me, something or someone to tell me that my ideas are creative, or that my ideas are at least GOOD ENOUGH.
I know there's tough competition with so many potential people in my class and as much as I try, it doesn't seem good enough.
People say I shouldn't have any qualms fitting in anywhere. As much as I hate to admit this, but I'm really not the popular girl and I'm not that likeable. I'm just a typical day-to-day student. Properly a nerd to some. So what if I am a poster girl or whatever word you call that. That's so passe. The colour on the posters are fading even!
I don't need to be famous. I just want to be recognised for my efforts. I just want to know that I'm being appreciated. Being in DHL once doesn't mean anything at all. It's not going to get me into university. And that's what's most important to me right now. To have a spot in the local university.
I'm not rich, I can't afford to go overseas. Moreover I've a younger sibling so I can't keep depending on my parents.
What's more, it sucks when you have talented over acheivers in your family. It's like you're some alien from outer space trying to fit in.
And best of all, I want so much to accomplish something, something that people might deem superficial, something that others think is just for the fame and such.
But believe it or not, it's because I simply love doing it. Time and again, I get rejected and I wonder if it's really because I'm not up to it.
Oh whatever. I'm pms-ing.
Bye all. What luck to have caught me on this very day.
On a lighter note, I really love Tiger.
gloomyYou know, during my internship I felt as though I didn't have a life; all I do is work, and work and work. And since it's by shift, I don't necessarily have weekends off. And off on weekdays are usually to catch up on some sleep.
But now that I'm back in school, I feel so much worse! And I'm not supposed to feel that way. Maybe it's because I'm not in the popular clique in the course, or maybe because my groupies and I have split up due to different majors or classes. I don't know. I just doesn't feel right being in school anymore.
There's totally no sense of motivation at all!
I need something to inspire me, something or someone to tell me that my ideas are creative, or that my ideas are at least GOOD ENOUGH.
I know there's tough competition with so many potential people in my class and as much as I try, it doesn't seem good enough.
People say I shouldn't have any qualms fitting in anywhere. As much as I hate to admit this, but I'm really not the popular girl and I'm not that likeable. I'm just a typical day-to-day student. Properly a nerd to some. So what if I am a poster girl or whatever word you call that. That's so passe. The colour on the posters are fading even!
I don't need to be famous. I just want to be recognised for my efforts. I just want to know that I'm being appreciated. Being in DHL once doesn't mean anything at all. It's not going to get me into university. And that's what's most important to me right now. To have a spot in the local university.
I'm not rich, I can't afford to go overseas. Moreover I've a younger sibling so I can't keep depending on my parents.
What's more, it sucks when you have talented over acheivers in your family. It's like you're some alien from outer space trying to fit in.
And best of all, I want so much to accomplish something, something that people might deem superficial, something that others think is just for the fame and such.
But believe it or not, it's because I simply love doing it. Time and again, I get rejected and I wonder if it's really because I'm not up to it.
Oh whatever. I'm pms-ing.
Bye all. What luck to have caught me on this very day.
On a lighter note, I really love Tiger.